Being-Towards-Death (向死而生)

Title: Being-Towards-Death (向死而生)
Author: 客兮 (Kè xī)
Chapter Count: 54 Chapters + 2 Extras
Status: Soon
Update Schedule: Soon
Source: Raw

Description:
Before committing suicide, he was confessed to.

The kid who was determined to die slowly didn’t expect at that time, he would always be sabotaged by the confessor.

Author Notes:

• Li Muze × Shen Tingmian
• Ending is HE, no one will die. 
• I hope that each Mianmian can become his own Muze. 
• You can use the comment area as a place to vent your negative emotions. (T/N: you can do it here too)
• If you feel bad, please seek medical attention as soon as possible. There may be no Li Muze in the future, but there must be Dr. Xue.

 

Being-towards-death: it’s from the book ‘Being and Time’, written by German philosopher Martin Heidegger. It’s basically about his idea about death. “The basic idea in Being and Time is very simple: being is time and time is finite. For human beings, time comes to an end with our death. Therefore, if we want to understand what it means to be an authentic human being, then it is essential that we constantly project our lives onto the horizon of our death. This is what Heidegger famously calls “being-towards-death”. If our being is finite, then an authentic human life can only be found by confronting finitude and trying to make a meaning out of the fact of our death. Heidegger subscribes to the ancient maxim that “to philosophise is to learn how to die”. Mortality is that in relation to which we shape and fashion our selfhood” (cr: guardian)

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Trigger Warning: depression, self-harm, suicide (very heavy!! The first 20+ chapters are just about MC having suicidal thoughts and his suicide attempts. Depression is the main plot here!) so please proceed only if you’re comfortable with this

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Chapter 01: Zero
Chapter 02: -24
Chapter 03: -23
Chapter 04
Chapter 05
Chapter 06
Chapter 07
Chapter 08
Chapter 09
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28

Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Extra 1: IF-A Place Nearby (BE)
Extra 2: You Speak

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T/N: I honestly love this very much!! the BE extra is really bittersweet :))

Also, this is not on NU (and please don’t put it on NU), mainly because I’m really translating this in my free time and the update is not fixed, and I’m really doing this edited mtl just for myself (because it bothers me Shen Tingmian is always translated as ‘listening to sleep’), so really, there are some parts that are not exactly grammatically correct or sounds weird to any of you, but it sounds fine to me so I just leave it be. So yeah.